MONDAY

All this time,

I don’t like Monday…

But now,

I am looking forward

for that Monday

to happen again…

Even if it will not be the same

as it used to be,

even if everything has changed.

Just one more Monday

to ease the pain,

to fill the longing

to let go of the regrets.

Please, just one more Monday

to start the closure

or maybe to close and start over,

Just one more Monday…

no- even just for

one last Monday

just one last…

Please,

though I am hoping it will not.

 

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Masochist

IMG_20180511_021356_519You lose your love
and act nostalgic
your heart break
and it consume you

you deal with grief
and confront it, (that’s good!)
but then you take it
to another level

It’s as if you’re enjoying the pain
this heartbreak causing you,
the way you keep seeking it out
Aren’t you tired of being melancholic?

Stop looking to the old picture
of your broken self, instead,
look at your whole new reflection
and learn to let go. YOU. HAVE. TO.

Sweet Escape

When it’s too much to bear

When you can no longer take it

When you don’t have the strength to continue

Then do this,

Lay down and close your eyes

Leave the world of reality

Enter the door of dream and fantasy

No you’re not losing, nor quitting

You’re just saving yourself

You just need more time to recuperate

So you can start again

For now sleep…

That’s your sweet escape

A letter to my old rival

she was once a beauty

admired by many

 

she was once a prize

you wanted so badly

 

she was my once upon a time

but she gave you her happily ever after

 

she was once my everything

and you left her with nothing

 

she was once a woman of the world

but because of you

 

she became a human

that has different world

 

what did you do

to the woman we both loved?

Day Dream

I am wide awake

though I feel like sleeping

I am much aware

though I refuse to care

I can travel on different places

while I’m stuck on this space

I’ve met people from all over the globe

while I’m still living in my own world

I am lucky to have this ability

the power to imagine from reality

and dream each day in every opportunity

For Pat

In my eyes, before

you were like a bimbo

pleasant to look at but empty inside

 

In my mind, before

you’re just an acquaintance

someone I know

but no significance

 

In my heart, before

you were nothing

you don’t matter

and no value in anything

 

However, in just a glimpse

everything has changed

 

In my eyes, now

you are exceptional

an alluring appearance

with a beautiful mind

 

In my mind, now

you’re my safe zone

someone I can turn to

when I’m on my weakest state

 

In my heart, now

you are a precious friend

a confidant that I can’t lose

my partner in crime

 

I never knew

that you would be this important to me

when I first met you

Odd Girl Writes

her bizarre thoughts

her baffling words

her strange actions

her written mysteries

that’s what you can get

from the odd girl who writes

My perfect counterpart

Your mind

linked to mine

 

You can interpret

the words inside

 

Our hearts

seem connected

 

You can easily

fathom my emotion

 

My soul

matches yours

 

You can completely

understand me

 

In you, I found

My perfect counterpart

Happy

GfxE0XrYThere’s a war inside my head

a battle of emotions

erupting madness

the force to succumb to loneliness

contagious sadness

triggering confusion

inflicting fear

I want to shout and scream

this commotion inside

is like an endless suffering

but,

it’s different outside

it’s all a facade

Happiness, is what they want to see

“I’m always happy”

that’s what everyone expect from

me

Adieu

He said,

I am busy

She said,

It’s fine, I’ll wait

 

He said,

Please, wait for me

She said,

Of course, I have all the time for you

 

He said,

I can’t make it

She said,

I am already expecting it

 

He said,

Please understand

She said,

I always do

 

He said,

I promise I’ll make it up to you

She said,

Okay, just do

 

He said,

I am sorry again

She said,

No worries, it’s fine

 

He said,

I’ll be there

She said,

I’m not there anymore

 

He said,

Where are you?

She said,

I left, I  have other things to do

 

He said,

I miss you

She said,

I am tired, I can’t be with you

 

He said,

I love you

She said,

You’re too late, Adieu

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